You can just call me...Mrs. Waterworks

Because I've broken down sobbing twice in the last 24 hours...I'm assuming that it's my hormones trying to play tricks on me and letting stupid little things bother me, but I'm going to try really hard to restrain myself the next time something stupid happens, and I feel like breaking into tears!

Last night on the way home from taking Banks to his Hunt Test, I got an email on my phone from my sister. She was updating me on who all was planning to come to my Family Baby Shower on Saturday, the 24th. I read through the list, and I came across one of Grant's sisters, and she had replied "No". I can't tell you how disappointed that I was to see that. Showers work much better for me on Sunday, because we have a busy schedule, but we planned it for Saturday, because she told us that she wouldn't be able to come if we didn't have it on a Saturday. So, Saturday it is...then, she volunteered to help my sister with the shower, and she bailed on helping, because she was "too busy with work". Okay, I understand that...we are all busy, and I can't blame her for not wanting to help. Then, I sent her an email in early August, and I told her the date of the shower, so she would be able to work around her schedule and make it. She emailed me last week and told me she thought that she would be able to make it, and she would let me know by the end of the week. I never heard back from her but apparently, she emailed my sister and told her that it was her boyfriends birthday weekend, and she felt like she needed to be there to celebrate with him, etc.

I sent an email to both of Grant's sister's inviting them to stay with us the night of the shower, and I never heard back from either of them. I doubt his other sister will come either, as I'm sure she has other things to do, as well, though she has known the date for quite some time also. As soon as I saw the email, I mentioned something to Grant about it, and I just burst into tears. I am extremely hurt that they don't make an effort to come and share things with me and to be a part of my life. I love them both, and we get along great, and they are fun to be around, but they don't make things that are important to Grant and I a priority. I felt like making the decision right then to not come to any showers that they ever have, because why would I make the effort if they don't make the effort for me.

Also, Grant's mom is very similar. She is coming to the shower, but she'll blow me off when I invite them to come to Athens to visit. They are always too busy or have something else going on. I emailed her almost two weeks ago, and she still hasn't call me back. I called her on Thursday and left her a voicemail asking her a few questions and asking her to call me back. I haven't heard from her yet. It's just so disappointing, and I feel like I can't count on them. It's so different from my family. If I called my dad this morning, and I said I needed something, he would drop everything and help me out. Same with my mom and sister, but I don't feel like I could do that with Grant's family. He knows this, and he has had similar experiences with his family, so he doesn't ask them for much, and he doesn't talk to them often. It just sucks, because I want to have a close relationship with them like I do with my parents.

The second time I cried was this morning...I was standing at the door waiting on Grant to help me carry some photos that I wanted to take to my office to my car, because they were heavy, and I had my hands full. I left the door open while I was waiting on him, and I was letting all the cool air from outside into the house, so he snapped at me about closing the door, because I was wasting energy, etc. I don't know what it was about him telling me that, but I just broke down into sobs, and I closed the door and took the photos to the car one by one by myself. Just thinking about it now makes me want to cry again...And it's SO stupid! He was just trying to avoid our power bill from being outrageous! Why am I so emotional?! I hate this, because it's SO untypical of me, and I want to be back to normal! Ha-Ha! Hopefully, I'll be back to normal before long!

What a way to start off a Monday morning...hope everyone else has a great Monday!!

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