Why am I such a Mess?!

I don't know what's wrong with me, but on top of not feeling well, I've been unbelievably emotional the past two days. Grant is headed out of town today, and he'll be gone through Friday. He'll be home on Friday, but then he is headed to the coast to pick up some shrimp for my family, so he's planning to go down on Friday when he gets home and take the dog, and he'll come back on Saturday late afternoon. He's also going to be out of town next week, and I'm kind of sad about it...maybe that's why I'm so emotional. I was gone last week, now he is gone for the next two weeks. It's probably also pregnancy hormones added to of the fact that I'm not getting enough sleep and not feeling well to equal one extremely emotional girl.

Last night, Grant was packing to leave, and he had this look on his face, so I asked him what was up, and he said you hung my shirts up, and they needed ironing. What is it with "Wrinkle-Free" shirts?! Aren't they supposed to be easy maintenance? Shouldn't I just be able to take them straight from the dryer and hang them up and not have to iron them?! It wasn't like they were obviously wrinkled, but the collars were wrinkled and folded in a strange way, so I should've ironed them instead of hanging them up. My bad! I didn't say anything to him about it hurting my feelings, and he told me that he appreciates all the things that I do for him, and he doesn't mind ironing, but he just hates getting a shirt out to wear and finding that it's wrinkled, so he has to go iron it when he is running low on time. I understand that! So, he wasn't trying to make me feel like I don't do enough around the house, but he definitely succeeded. So, I started crying...then he felt terrible, and I just couldn't stop crying.

Then today I was supposed to have meetings through lunch, but I rescheduled one of them, because I wanted to try to get in lunch with Grant today before he leaves at 1:00 PM. So early in the day, I told him that I needed to play it by ear, because I hadn't rescheduled the meeting yet, and I would let him know. At 11:45 AM, he emails me and says that he is going out to eat with one of his friends and wanted to know if he could bring me something back. Nice gesture, but I couldn't have been more disappointed and upset, and I was on a conference call that didn't end until noon when he emailed me, so I had to put it on mute, because I couldn't stop myself from crying. I wanted to eat lunch with him, and I adjusted my schedule accordingly, but I hadn't told him my plans, so how could he have known. He felt bad and said that I could go to eat with them, then he said that he could cancel his plans with his friend, but I was stubborn and upset, so I declined. And I don't know about you guys, but when I've been crying, I look awful...my nose gets red, and I look terrible. I didn't bring any make-up with me to the office today, so I couldn't reapply my make-up before leaving for lunch. And I didn't really want to go out in public looking like I'd been crying!! And I'm still crying...I can't stop! I don't know why I'm so upset...is it because I couldn't see Grant before he leaves? Because I'm going to be without him for the next two weeks? Because I just have wild pregnancy hormones and everything makes me act crazy?! I'm not really sure, but I hate not feeling like I can control myself and my emotions. Are all pregnant women like this?

Grant is always so supportive and helpful, and I let every small stupid thing hurt my feelings. I need to toughen up! Ha-Ha! :) Anyways, since I've written a novel...I'm done now! Have a good day, everyone! :)

Edit: And the waterworks start again...Grant is gone! He didn't have time to stop by my office and tell me bye, because he was running late coming back from lunch, so I didn't get lunch nor did I even get a goodbye, and I just broke down and started crying again!! It's unbelievable! I can't stop crying and every little thing makes me sob!